Day 39; Dom is coming home!

Sorry for not blogging yesterday, my evening was spent back at home with my family. I decided to rock up uninvited (it is still my house after all..) to go through my wardrobe. It needed a good organise, plus I had suitcases full of old clothes in the loft from university, most of which I was able to either donate to charity or throw away. I had dinner there too, but instead of having smoked salmon with them I made my own chicken pasta type meal. It was really nice and less than 500 calories! I’d have had the salmon if it wasn’t smoked, I’m just not keen on it. Because I’d had such a low calorie dinner I was able to have a little yoghurt for pudding and I was still under 1000 calories – MyFitnessPal tells you off if you don’t eat at least 1000 calories a day – so I had a little bowl of cereal when I got back to the flat to bring me over that limit.

I didn’t go to bed until gone 10pm either which is  late for me! I got woken up by my mom ringing me at 9am this morning telling me to get ready as we’d planned to go to M&S to grab a few bits and bobs. We started off in the cafe where Mom had a latte and some shortbread biscuits which looked so yummy but I resisted and just had water and my yoghurt for breakfast. The weather has been lovely so far so we sat near the windows to enjoy the brief sun while we could. We had a mooch around homeware but didn’t find anything we liked so we headed down to women’s wear. As per usual, I found a few things I liked and came away with a few new pairs of tights, some jeans, and a backless jumper (don’t ask how it works, it looks nice though). We quickly nipped into the food hall so mom could buy her friend a few birthday gifts. We settled on a nice box of flowers with a mini bottle of Prosecco. We considered chocolates but she’s given them up for Lent so we didn’t want to scupper that on Day 2 of Lent because that seems a little cruel. We also bought my nan a few little treats like cakes and tarts. She hasn’t been very well and she’s going in for some major surgery next week and her eating will be affected so we thought we’d let her have some tarts and cakes while she can still eat solid food!

Speaking of lent, I haven’t officially given anything up, so that can be something for me to consider. Most people go for alcohol or chocolate but I don’t consume either of those so I’ll have to be a little more creative.

On to the amazing news, my boyfriend gets home today! In fact, he’s already landed and I’m writing this post as he is driving home from the airport. It’s the longest we’ve been apart and I can confirm that absence really does make the heart grow fonder. I’ve already made a dash to Morrisons to get supplies for dinner – his favourite meal at the moment is venison burgers with brioche buns and lots of veggies. It will be interesting getting him back on the health kick since he’s had some pretty high calorie days since going away. I guess he’s been more active though, running around installing things in a factory all day must burn a heck of a lot of calories.

I’ve tidied the flat so he can’t complain that I’ve destroyed it while he’s been away. Now to go and get myself ready so I can run and greet him when he arrives back! And we’ve already made plans to go to one of our local parks for a cute walk. Exciting!!

 

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Day 37; 6am start

For my job at M&S I work in the Food Hall, which means that we all get in at 6am (yes…. it’s still dark outside at that time!) to get the shop ready for when we open at 8am. You’d be surprised at how many people come in first thing in the morning because who wouldn’t want to wake up early and get their shopping in? EVERYBODY. These people are lunatics! Some people who come in just buy all the food we’ve reduced as it’s today’s date so they end up with a really random assortment of food, but oh well, each to their own. It wasn’t fun waking up at 5am today, and although I’d got a fair amount of sleep in for a work day I always feel a bit groggy when I’m throwing my uniform on and simultaneously brushing my knotty hair. Plus, the added bonus today was leaving the flat and being presented with a car that resembled a block of ice. Yippee, looks like the weather is taking a downward turn again. I can’t be one to complain though, I’ve booked a few days off so I’m not in work for a while and I get a 3 day weekend with Dom!

The one benefit of my job though is being on my feet for relatively long periods of time. You may be thinking… hang on? You consider that a benefit? Well by midday I’d already clocked about 8,500 steps and I’m almost at 12,500 now. Given that I’d planned to go to the gym and completely flaked because of the rubbish weather I don’t feel quite as guilty any more for getting my steps in. I do a fair amount of lifting and pushing at work too which means I can consider it a workout, right? I also do a bit of dancing around the living room at home to old-school Justin Timberlake like any ‘normal’ 22 year old does…. Not too sure I’ll lose much weight this week if at all given the lack of gym and I’ve actually been eating a few hundred more calories than usual. I put it down to loneliness. Woe is me.

On the days I work I can either eat breakfast at about 5:30am before I leave the flat or I have to wait until my break which can be anywhere from 9am to 11am depending on how busy it is on the shop floor. I opt for the 5am breakfast, I’m one of these weirdos who cannot function without a little bit of food in my tummy. I don’t eat heavily though, just a Skyr Protein Pot yoghurt thing, which is about 20g of protein per 150g! And surprisingly it fills me up until my break-time. They aren’t cheap though, only 3 pots for £3.00. I pack my own lunch for work nowadays as it makes me drink more water and eat a bit better. The canteen does a really nice fry up of sausages, bacon, poached eggs, beans etc and I used to have it every day but now I opt for a few homemade chicken wraps with veggies. It helps me feel more in control of what I’m eating, and I save time given that I only get 15 mins to get to the breakroom, eat, pee, tidy up and get back downstairs to work!

Dom is still in the Netherlands and I’m missing him like mad. He’s been having a rough time of it from what he’s been telling me in our brief evening phone calls, everything that they’d planned to get done seems to be going wrong and his colleagues have to stay for an extra two nights. Not him, thankfully! So he should be back in a few days which I am very excited for. He’s been sending me photos of the food he’s been eating, and it looks so delicious. Here’s last nights contribution from him. Is he trying to make me jealous?

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Today he had a pizza and I just got an update that he ‘demolished it in 5 minutes’. How I want to be him right now! I treated myself to a chicken korma last night, but it was homemade so not as naughty as a takeaway. With the rice included it came in at around 700 calories which is quite hefty for me. It tasted nicer than it looks, FYI.

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I nipped to the shops to get some food to keep me going for the next few days and, guess what, I forget to take my shopping list and my bags. Typical. Also, I still haven’t eaten dinner yet and the more I’ve been typing the more hungry I’ve been getting so I’m wrapping it up here. I’m either having chicken fajitas (but I guess that’s yet more wraps for today… so maybe not?) or chicken with pesto sauce and veg. Pesto it is then.

Day 36; And so we begin again (long post)

As you can see, we’re not on day 400 or some crazy number, so we’re kicking all this off again. So, for the second time, HELLO WORLD! I’m back on my blog which is both nostalgic and a tad upsetting. My blog towards the end of my SW journey became a way for me to look back and think about how far I’d come and to congratulate myself on hitting my goals. I’m trying to think back to when I last visited my blog to make a post and it must be Summer 2015 and now its the start of 2017… I can’t even begin to describe how much has happened/changed in my life in the last 18 months, but I’m going to attempt to condense it down (if I can remember!). Get ready for the dreaded W.O.T – Wall of Text:

I went back to university to start my third and final year of my studies and life was pretty good. My weight was healthy and I was throwing in a few treats here and there but on the whole was staying on track. I booked to go on the ski trip in December 2015 to Val D’Isere with other students including some close friends and my housemate James at the time. As it got closer to the Christmas holidays, though, I started to feel a bit ill. Not just a tummy bug or a headache, but a weird kind of ill. I had a really bad tremor in my hands, I had no strength especially in my legs, my heart was racing like crazy, I couldn’t sleep much and I was constantly really warm. I just put it down to me being stressed about third year and the extra work load that consisted of (I fell asleep in the lab once!) so it went to the back of my mind. On the coach trip to France for my skiing holiday I felt ill again which was partially due to my travel sickness and could’ve been a bit of altitude sickness thrown in there too. It wasn’t until I got onto the slopes on Day 1 when I realised I was not myself, I felt so nauseous and warm, I couldn’t focus on the skiing which I absolutely love, and I couldn’t keep up with everybody despite being quite a good skier. I spent the afternoon of Day 1 back at the hotel in bed – not how I wanted to spend my trip! Fast forward to the end of the trip and I went out briefly for one night and tried to drink alcohol but decided it wasn’t a good idea. I didn’t get up as early as everyone else because I was 100% drained and they must’ve thought I was the biggest party pooper ever because my mood was foul for the majority of the trip. Thankfully, the journey back was spent with most people, me included, sleeping off as many hours as we could.

Christmas quickly came around which was spent at my Aunty’s house. I had been sick on the morning but I didn’t want to be in bed on Christmas day so I put on a brave face and went over. Now, I’m not ridiculous but if I have a Christmas dinner I pile my plate as high as anyone else would, but this year I had no appetite and put a few slices of turkey, a couple of veggies and a few potatoes on my plate. Now, my aunty’s potatoes are delicious and I could barely stomach them, and not long after I finished I fell asleep on the sofa for a few hours whilst everyone else sat around the table playing Christmas games. My mom knew that this wasn’t just something I’d caught and I couldn’t just put it down to altitude sickness now that I was safely back in Birmingham, so she took me to the GP a few days later. He took about 5 seconds of feeling my neck and checking my BP & pulse to say that I had hyperthyroidism and that it was pretty darn bad. I’d only ever heard of thyroid problems when I’d studied endocrinology at university so I knew the basics of it but I hadn’t connected the dots with my symptoms. I was sent straight to A&E where they took my bloods and confirmed that I had thyrotoxicosis, my body was basically toxic due to the extremely high levels of thyroid hormones going through my system! I was put on Carbimazole to bring my levels down (which was upped again after seeing my doctor a few days later) and Propranolol to control my heart rate which was 132 bpm RESTING. Yes, resting. My 21st birthday was just another day of feeling ill, vomiting, being tired, and not what I had in mind when I was planning a big event earlier in the year. Not much later I had to go back to uni and despite being on my medication things got worse! Unbeknown to me, I was going through a very dangerous thyroid storm (google it) and I couldn’t keep any food or liquids down whatsoever so I was rushed back home by a family friend and I went back to my doctor. She gave me an injection – now this is an in-joke but it REALLY HURT! I was then put onto a ward and I had needles in just about every place you can imagine – 4 in my arms and one in each hand, and I was on a drip as well. They monitored my blood sugars and changed my medication to Propythiouracil, meaning I was taking in excess of 20 tablets a day. I suspended my course until the following January so that I could stay near my doctor and hopefully recover quickly. My levels did drop but not very quickly and it was becoming concerning how little progress I was making. I started working for my Aunty in the Jewellery Quarter in Birmingham City Centre for a while, followed by a few jobs in local schools to keep me busy (I wasn’t recovered by any means so I had low activity jobs to allow me to afford a car!).

I eventually agreed to Radioactive Iodine therapy treatment for August 2016 which is a little radioactive pill that releases iodine into my system to kill my thyroid cells. This leads to the opposite of hyperthyroidism over time because I don’t have the thyroid cells to control my body functions, so it was very likely I’d develop hypothyroidism after treatment. August 2016 was very memorable for me for a drastically different reason though! I met my now boyfriend Dom just a few days after my treatment and despite having to keep my distance because of the negative affects of exposure to radioactivity we spent every day together that we could when he wasn’t working. I was also offered a job working at my local M&S part time which I was happy about because it would give me money for days out with Dom and I could keep my car so that we could see each other as he lived about 30 mins away at the time. After my treatment I started to feel a lot better quite quickly. I loved going for walks around the Lickey Hills while it was still summery and warm outside, and a lot of my symptoms started to fade. However, with my new found freedom, my metabolism was getting slower and slower and my eating habits started to get worse and worse. My boyfriend is a tall man who can get away with eating a lot more than I can so I started eating bigger portions, but then I started having naughty food binges when I was at his house because I could buy my own food and control my own diet fully again.

We’ve almost come full circle, don’t worry! He moved flat to be nearer to work (just kidding, it was to be closer to me!!) and my naughty eating habits just continued. I stay with him to be closer to work and I just got 100% comfortable in his company so quickly that I lost sight of my health and maintaining my weight. At my lowest weight I was about 12 stone 2lbs, but that was because of my hyperthyroidism eating at my muscle mass and massively increasing my metabolism. So I consider the last time I was at a healthy weight NATURALLY it was 12 stone 7lbs. That was when I stopped Slimming World in the summer of 2015.

I made the decision to weigh myself towards the end of January this year and I was weighing in at 15 stone 2 – meaning I’d put on around 2 stone and 9lbs since I last dieted. I was absolutely gutted and ashamed, but at least I’d stopped myself before getting back into the 240lb/17 stone region! My boyfriend also made the decision to lose a bit of weight himself because he’d not been hitting the gym as hard as before he met me and he’d probably picked up some of my bad habits! I’m not going back on Slimming World – it worked the first time around but I have the support of my family and more importantly the support of my boyfriend to do this with. So I’m home cooking pretty much every meal I eat except on Friday nights where we go for a pub meal (but a healthy one!!) and Sunday mornings. I go back home on Sunday mornings and have breakfast with my family and Dom and I weigh myself each week on that day. We’ve been tracking what we eat using the MyFitnessPal app and trying to keep our macros (carb/protein/fat) in good proportions. We also try to go to the gym at least 3 times a week and I do a bit of cardio but mostly I lift weights and do other weight based exercises. My cooking skills have vastly improved since the last time I blogged so I’m cooking so much more variety and I have to admit it all tastes so good. And good news, I’ve been losing weight! On a side note, I’ve officially been diagnosed with hypothyroidism and I have been scheduled to start thyroxine tablets very soon, which should help me deal with the few little niggly symptoms I’ve noticed and hopefully get my weight under control a bit easier.

But anyway, back to the weigh ins. I started at 15 stone 2lbs or 212lbs (gasp), and the last few weeks have gone as follows!

22/01: 15 stone 2lbs/212lbs
29/01: 14 stone 8lbs/204lbs
05/02: 14 stone 5lbs/201lbs
12/02: 14 stone 2lbs/198lbs
19/02: 14 stone 0lbs/196lbs
26/02: 13 stone 12lbs/194lbs

So I’ve already lost 1 stone 4lbs in 5 weeks! I’m over the moon to have firmly left the 15 stone region well back and I’m aiming for 12 stone 7lbs again by summer time – but with more muscle this time! Not in a body building style but I want toned legs/bum/arms/back etc. Dream body, come on! I have progress pictures but unfortunately they are NSFW because I wanted to see the difference without clothes making me look larger or smaller so you won’t be able to see the change visually but I can and let me assure you it’s coming along nicely. Dom’s away on a work trip at the moment so I’m only cooking for myself which isn’t as fun because I love making him happy with his dinner. I miss him so much as well which makes me want icecream!!

To keep me busy I’m going to have a play around with my blog to update it with my new information so watch this space!

Hello World!

My little sister’s blog! Bit of a different vibe to mine (weight loss vs cake!!) but give it a read. She’s only young and she’s a fab little chef!

Cooking With Milly

Hello everyone, my name is Milly and this is my new blog all about me cooking and baking. I love to cook and that is why I decided to set up this blog. I will post on here every time I cook/bake something interesting.

A few days ago, I decided to make a Victoria Sponge using the damson jam my mom made. Here is what it looked like:

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Recipe

For the cake:
225g of softened butter
225g of caster sugar
4 large eggs
225g self raising flour, sieved

For the filling:
Homemade damson jam

Everyone that tried it said how delicious it was, so you should definitely give it a go! If you don’t have any homemade jam, then any jam will do. Why not try something unusual like Apricot Jam?

Thank you for reading my blog, until next time…. Keeeeeeep baking!

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Day 192; Some interesting news…

The last week has been a bit odd if I’m honest. Since getting back from holiday I’ve been much better with my eating and I have lost 3lbs! Just goes to show that you can get back onto healthy eating despite eating copious amounts of ice-cream and cake the week before. Mom has been experimenting with some ideas on recipes to try, so I’m having heaps of veg and lovely meat in new and interesting ways. As always, delicious. Here are a few of my meals from this week; an egg salad (lettuce, cucumber, mushrooms, ham, carrots, peppers…), an egg and butterbean stew with loads of veg (courgettes, broccoli etc) and then my favourite of them all; pepper and ham salad with chickpeas and a garlic and basil dressing. Continue to be jealous, go on.

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Plus, I am a happy bunny because the tennis is on! Who doesn’t love Wimbledon? I went about 6 years ago and had the best day, so watching it on TV isn’t quite as spectacular but I do love watching it nonetheless. As always, I’ll be cheering on Federer and Murray – I can’t STAND Djokovic. Not sure why, maybe it’s because he comes off arrogant but I just can’t bring myself to support the guy.

I went to Snobs [nightclub in Birmingham, FYI] last weekend with my friends from school. We used the first letters of our names (well, L for me because nobody actually calls me Olivia unless I’m being told off!) so we refer to our little group as LAMA. We made it up a few years ago and it just stuck. We also invited our friend Nishith who is moving to Melbourne today to study abroad for a year! So it was nice to see him before he disappeared to the other side of the world for a while. An odd coincidence too was that we saw some people who went to our school/sixth form in Snobs, one of which is an old best friend of mine. I haven’t seen him for about 2 years other than the occasional snapchat which really doesn’t count, so it was great to see him too. I went to my local gym on Sunday but I didn’t work out, I had a nice swim instead. I did about 25 lengths in the end, and the pool was reasonably quiet so I nabbed the ‘quick lane’ for some proper swimming. I didn’t have to dodge around the slow people that way, or splash anyone in the face.

So given the title of this post you can guess that this week has been more eventful than just watching TV, eating, swimming and going out. Well, a woman from the Slimming World press office got in contact with me about my application for my story to feature on their website. Unfortunately, it didn’t get picked to go on their official website but she did refer me to the major student online newspaper called The Tab. It’s a pretty big deal, a lot of students read it! They ran my story which you can read here:

http://tab.co.uk/2015/07/03/i-put-on-five-stone-at-uni-by-going-out-and-eating-in-secret/

Yes, I know. Not the catchiest headline. He did make some exaggerations about my story, but I’ve just accepted that it’s just journalism! Oh, and I didn’t gain 5 stone in one term (IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE!?), it was one year + one term. So about 16-17 months.

At first I was really upset about the article, given that he’d twisted my words and made some pretty big exaggerations in the name of entertainment. But I realised that my story is out there now, and I’d heard back that a lot of other people had got the courage to tell their stories too! That made me feel a lot better about it all, and I haven’t had any negativity towards my story either. Not long after the story got published, I got offers from TWO other NATIONAL MAGAZINES wanting to run my story as well! Who’d have thought I’d be sought after? I am still considering it rather than jumping at it because, although it’s all out there now, I don’t want to feel like I’m selling my soul or something! Haha, now who’s exaggerating?

That’s not even the best bit – I got some flowers delivered to my house. I didn’t think that they were for me originally, I thought maybe my sister’s boyfriend had been adorable and sent them but noooooo, they were for me from the Slimming World Press Office! They were sent in congratulations about my weight loss and my article in The Tab. I was so happy when I got them, all my worries/nervousness about the story being in the public eye went away and it felt like I’d got recognition for my achievements. I didn’t think I’d get this much attention whatsoever. Oh, here’s me posing awkwardly (makeup free too) with my flowers.

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I may be going shopping to Merry Hill later on today if all goes to plan. I was meant to be going to a pub quiz but it was later than I originally thought, so I may struggle to get home. The joys of living somewhere with no public transport within a reasonable walking distance!

Day 184; Gran Canaria

So the holiday finally came around and it has been and gone. I have had an AMAZING week (I haven’t blogged in a few weeks now, I will probably only blog once a week tops during summer) and I have to admit that the diet has gone completely off track. Who wants to stay on a diet when they’re on an all inclusive holiday? Nobody. Nobody is the answer. So, considering I’d paid for it all, I just ate it all. I won’t lie, at times I thought I should stop, or I got a wave of guilt for getting another piece of cake. But a holiday is a holiday and I just wanted to enjoy myself. I’ve already got back on track today though, not on the Slimming World track but on the ‘healthy eating’ track. My slimming world subscription ends today and I’ve made the decision not to renew my membership. I have learnt a lot from doing Slimming World but a low-fat diet with unlimited portion sizes isn’t for me.

Whilst I think Slimming World is a perfect option for people with big appetites and a need to lose a lot of weight, it no longer suits me. I’m not going to revert back to my old ways by any means, but I want to just eat well without being under a brand name. Know what I mean? I’ll keep eating my vegetables, I promise! So to anyone reading this who is a slimming world worshipper, keep going. You WILL get results and you WILL lose weight if you stick to the plan. I’ve been on it for 6 months now and I couldn’t be happier, but I think I need to break away from the support of SW if I can realistically keep the weight off indefinitely.

From now on I won’t weigh in every week (publicly anyway) but I will continue posting pictures of my meals, even writing the recipes if I’m feeling particularly ambitious. Plus I’ll keep this blog updated with pictures and my life in general.

Right, now that all the boring stuff is over I can tell you about the holiday! I have, for the first time, not burned my whole body to a crisp and I have actually tanned. Turns out all you need to do is lotion up and not sit in the sun for too long. Who knew, eh? 😉 It was a very relaxed holiday, with most days spent either on the beach or by the pool. The hotel was lovely and clean, the food was good and I had the best week with my cousin. And the irony of it is that I’ve arrived back in England in the early hours of this morning and I am in a bikini yet again – the weather here is not too far off the temperature there! I did eat an obscenely large amount of bread, ice-cream, cake, muffins and I drank a fair share of cocktails etc etc whilst I was away but I am determined to get some of that weight off before I go to Spain in exactly a months’ time.

I’ll add on a few of my holiday snaps for good measure.

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Day 163-167; Breaking the silence… finally!

Well it has been almost a week since I posted on this blog! And for good reason – I have had the busiest week ever since I started this blog up in January. If you’ve been keeping up to date with my previous posts then you will know that my cousin Bella came down to see me on Tuesday. She arrived in the morning so I met her at the train station. We had a wonderful day shopping in town followed by dinner at a restaurant called Giraffe. Now, as a side note for all of the slimming world readers out there, I wasn’t on plan this week. I wanted to live a little – I had nights out and meals with friends so it was difficult to not go a bit wild. But from today (i.e. Sunday) onwards I will be back on track. Anyway, it was absolutely delicious; I had a prawn linguine and Bella had a risotto. We both had our eyes on several dishes on the menu so we agreed to go to Giraffe again at some point together! We’re off on our holiday on the 22nd and we conveniently found out that there is a Giraffe restaurant at the airport! So we are planning on having lunch there before we fly. Here is what our meal looked like; IMG_0742 After our meal we went to the cinema. We went to see that new film called Spy. Yep the one with Jude Law in (ahhhh so dreamy) and it was actually hilarious. Highly recommend it – I laughed so hard at parts. We then headed home to get some sleep for our festival the next day…. Well it didn’t quite go as smoothly as we planned. The festival was ran by a company called Entourage Project which, in essence, host all of the big nights out in Reading. Me and Bells didn’t want to arrive early as it was meant to be an all-nighter and the drinks were very expensive so we planned on getting there at last entry. However, we started hearing from people who were there early and everyone was saying how awful it was. Gross toilets, expensive food and drink, no grass to sit on, you weren’t allowed in the water (it was a lake festival….) so we just made the decision to not go. My housemates still went but they got back at 11 apparently, so it was a bit of a flop. It didn’t matter anyway because me and Bella and one of my course friends called Imogen went to the Union on campus. We actually had a good night! The only problem was that we didn’t start drinking until half an hour before we had to leave so we got a bit silly and started downing drinks. I handled it reasonably well, I just got happy drunk. Unfortunately for Bella she had quite a bit of gin so she spent a fair portion of the night with her head in the toilet bowl. Oh well, we all said we had a better time on the toilet floor than at that Waterworks Festival! Here are a few photos from before we all got a bit too…. messy. IMG_0750 IMG_0760 IMG_0768 IMG_0772 The next day was the Thursday when Bells was meant to be getting a train home. When we were out Bella had booked a train for Friday instead so we had another day together! We went shopping yet again – is that all I do?! I bought quite a few bits and pieces, like shorts and new tops. The tops were crop tops as well, I would never have dreamed of buying a crop top before now! We went out for an early dinner too at around 5 o’clock to Jamie’s Italian. In Reading, the restaurant overlooks the canal so we asked for an outdoor table on the upstairs terrace. The weather on Thursday was absolutely stunning too so we didn’t regret it. I was in a vest and shorts and was still too hot. Given how delicious my linguine was at Giraffe I opted for it in Jamie’s Italian too! I don’t know which I preferred; Jamie’s was a hotter garlic kick which I love but Giraffe’s had a nicer sauce. I still enjoyed the meal all the same. IMG_0775 So that brought us to Thursday evening. We’d decided to use our extra night together in yet another club because why not! We went to one in town though this time. We managed to convince Joe and James to join us so we had fun with drinking games before we left. It was a shame that it was a bit dead in the club, presumably because a lot of people were tired after Waterworks the day before. We had a good boogie regardless. I wore a crop top too and I was confident, what a dramatic change from just a few months ago. 11391647_386387568238752_7472331170445479768_n We left quite early in the end, probably at around 2am. Friday came around all too soon and it was a shame that the weather took a turn for the worse. We’d decided to go to the cinema (again) as it would be a good time waster before Bella had to catch her evening train back to Birmingham. We went to see Jurassic World this time. It was a good film, I just was expecting something amazing because it had been so hyped up! I think the boys in my house want to go and see it so I may just go and watch it again, contemplating 3D this time too. Dinosaurs running out of the screen at you? Sounds like a laugh, doesn’t it? After the cinema I took Bella to the station and we said our goodbyes, but it wasn’t too sad because I’m going back to Birmingham on Tuesday! When I got back, I started packing up my room in preparation for move out day. All of my life is now in a pile of boxes and suitcases – only to move 2 doors down the road! *sigh* Bella, if you are reading this, I just wanted to let you know that it was a pleasure to have you and you are welcome to Reading whenever you please! Next time I will have to come visit you at Cardiff Uni!! And that brings me to the biggest event of any student’s year at Reading Uni….. The Summer Ball!! We had pre drinks at our house with some friends down the road as well as our neighbours so we ended up with quite a full house! All of the boys were dressed up in their suits and all the girls were dolled up to the 9s in dresses and makeup and curly hair and nice shoes…. It was definitely a photo occasion! James has a proper camera so he got most of the pictures. When I get hold of them I will post them because they will have turned out lovely. I got a really nice one of me with all of the lads who came (maybe 8 or so) and I must look like I stick out being the only girl in their with them! I wore a dress I bought a while ago from New Look, and I actually felt really pretty. You know one of those days where your makeup just seems to go on perfectly? My tights didn’t rip all night either! When we first arrived at about half 10 everyone seemed to run off in separate directions. The queues for the toilets were absolutely ridiculous so it felt like I spent the first few hours just waiting to pee. But once that was all done with I went and danced in the main tent and had a great time with my friends. It was a shame that so many of the group left really early. The whole event went on until 6am but all of my housemates had left by about 3am. I still had fun without them, and I wasn’t left on my own so it was all good. There were fairground-type rides there too but the queues were too long so I just didn’t bother. I do regret one thing though, I had chips and a beef burger from a shack whilst I was there! But I was quite drunk (sorry Mom) and it was a one off so I let loose. I walked home at 6am in the rain, it was light outside and I even saw some people leaving their houses to go to work. All in all, the summer ball was amazing and I had a fabulous time. I wouldn’t change even one bit of it! I even managed to wake up this morning earlier than some of my housemates which just shows how lazy them lot are! IMG_0837 IMG_0843IMG_0822IMG_0827 Apologies for this obscenely long blog post but like I said it was a very busy few days and I have loved every second of it. I am now going to finish off watching the new series of Orange Is The New Black, curl up with my cup of tea and maybe have a nap.

Day 163; There’s no shame in a gain

Bella will be arriving in a few hours! I just crashed last night after staying up and chatting with my housemates so my room is in a bit of a state. I will have to run around now and tidy it up and get myself sorted for when she’s here. If you read yesterday’s blog you are probably aware that I was very nervous about weighing in today. I have a very guilty conscience which I am trying to shake; once you’ve made a mistake involving a choice in food there is generally not much you can do about it other than get back on track and try to not do it again. My problem is that I get very hung up on any mistake I make – I want to be perfect and make no mistakes!

I think my issue stems from when I lost a bit of weight a few years ago. I probably lost about 2 stone going from low 13s into the low 11s. Looking back at pictures , I had gotten SO slim. Like, so slim that I wouldn’t even want to get to that point again. But I didn’t see a slim girl in the mirror, I saw every flaw and blemish. I dwelled on every problem area rather than praising myself for my achievements. However, I lost weight that time by a very calorie-restricted diet (notice how I said restricted and not ‘controlled’, as I denied myself food and weighed absolutely everything to eat about 1,200 cals a day maximum). I also religiously went to the gym for hours at a time. So to be going through weight loss all over again I want to be better so to make mistakes that I didn’t make back then gives me those feelings of failure.

For me to actually weigh in this morning took a bit stern words with myself! Last week I was at home for weigh in on different scales and so a part of me doesn’t rely on what the scales said. But I hit target and I entered the weight onto SW so I made the decision to use it as my weight! So last week I weighed 12st 6lbs. This week I weigh….

12st 7lbs!

Now I bet you’ll be confused as to why I would celebrate a gain of 1lb. Crazy isn’t it? Well, I thought it would be a much bigger gain than that! Plus, it still puts me at my original SW target and I am still happy with my physical appearance so what is there not to celebrate. Sometimes, to take steps forward you may have to take one step back. If I’d had this gain a few weeks ago I probably would have thrown in the towel and given up. My self esteem wasn’t quite where it is now and I wouldn’t have been able to handle it! And whilst my graph may not be ‘kinkless’ and my legs remain a bit wobblier than I want, I will complete my journey at the pace that me (and my body) wants!

I’d also like to point out that I have still lost 65lbs overall, which is 4 stone 9 lbs! 

Last night I made the diet coke chicken AGAIN like I planned to. It was slightly different than the first batch – but certainly not  worse! It was slightly less liquidy so my plate wasn’t swimming. Flavour-wise it tasted great again too. I did brown rice with it again.

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I think I got the portion size a bit better this time too! I always try to get several colours on my chopping board but focus on green veg. I added the sweetcorn once it was in the pan but all the other veg are speed foods (mushrooms, mangetout, courgettes, green beans, peppers, broccoli, onions, garlic….)

Now to get my room spick and span in less than 2 hours…. wish me luck!!! 🙂

Day 162; Netflix bingeing and shopping

I went shopping into town today to grab some bits and bobs for Bella’s arrival tomorrow, as well as useful things to go towards my holiday. Knowing me, I had in the back of my mind that I could buy a dress or two if I saw a nice one, but nothing seemed to grab my attention today unfortunately! 😦 The only one I was close to buying was in H&M, and I even texted my mom a picture of me in it for her opinion. I instinctively picked up a large because I’ve been so used to having that size now for a while but it was a bit loose on me around the shoulders, waist and chest area. I went back to see if they had a medium and they only had XS and L. That was a shame. I’ll show you guys what it looked like anyway:

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I have a weird thing about not taking my socks off when trying clothes on, and it drives my mom mad because she thinks you can’t get a proper understanding of what a dress looks like if you wear socks. But here’s me being a rebel and keeping them on. The dress was black and had purple pineapples on – don’t ask me why but the pattern was really funky. Shame, though.

The whole trip wasn’t in vain though. I got a giant beach-style bag from primark which will be good for Wednesday. We have to take towels and stuff for the lake festival and considering me and Bella will be together I thought we may as well share a bag. I even got some new pjs (who doesn’t love a good pair of pjs….?) and a film. Maybe if we end up having a night in tomorrow we can watch it then. I also bought some new bed sheets as I probably won’t get mine through the washer and dryer in time for tomorrow considering there is already a queue of laundry baskets from my housemates in the kitchen as we speak.

I’ve really gotten into this programme on Netflix called Person of Interest. I really recommend it! The only problem is that I get so into it that hours fly by and I am still lying on the sofa 8 episodes in and I haven’t got any of the jobs done that I planned for the day! Tonight we are thinking about having a film night again but there are two contenders for the chosen film. I would quite like to watch The Hobbit (I think it’s called the Battle of the Five Armies, so the third film in the trilogy) as I haven’t watched it yet. But Joe fancies watching Back to the Future. I haven’t watched that either, and he thinks it is a right of passage to watch it.

I haven’t had dinner yet, or even decided what I am having. It may have to be a really easy meal as it is coming up to 8 o’clock now and I don’t like eating too late. If I eat at this kind of time I get the urge to snack afterwards and that’s a bad habit to get into. I will have a gander on the slimming world website for some inspiration. Knowing me though I’ll just throw things into a pan and hope it tastes good. Yesterday I had the rest of my diet coke chicken that I had saved. Although you can’t see it in the picture, I had some brown basmati rice with it to help soak up all the extra sauce I had. Turns out I hadn’t split the portions evenly so the second meal seemed much larger than the first; and with MUCH more sauce too! It tasted great though – I will definitely be cooking it again at some point! Speaking of, I still have some diet coke left over from Thursday come to think of it…..

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It’s weigh in tomorrow and I really don’t want to. I have eaten more this week than I usually would, and whilst it is all healthy things that are within the limits of Slimming World rules I know that I should’ve stopped eating. Now that exams are over and the days are less busy I find myself boredom eating. For me, that’s worse than emotional eating because it’s easier for me to tell when I am emotionally eating than when I am boredom eating. Not to mention that I had a massive night out this week, and there are several planned nights out this week (Waterworks festival and the university Summer Ball) which will be big nights for drinking. I need to just bite the bullet and weigh in – if I don’t own up to it I will just sit here in denial, won’t I?

Day 161; New blog layout…. again!

I generally don’t like change but the last month screams everything to the contrary. I’ve changed the theme and layout of this blog for a second time in a matter of weeks because I’m trying to make it more user friendly! It does have its issues though, which I will dedicate today to resolving as many of those issues as possible. I’m still a bit undecided as to whether I like it; it all looks a bit professional doesn’t it. Which is not very me at all! (Most of the issues at the moment are with the layout of the pages, and the organisation of menus, so feel free to have a nosy at stuff but it might not look pretty just yet!)

I’ve changed the way things are displayed and what-not, and I spent a bit of time making a collage of transformation pictures. Here is the one that you can find on the photos page, and you can see that I have added a photo for June! Feeling quite proud of myself for coming this far:FotorCreated

Just a side note, feel free to leave comments on my blog posts if you want to ask me any questions about Slimming World or just me in general, I’d be very happy to answer them.