Over the last two days the thought has crossed my mind. ‘Just give up’. How easy it would be to just start munching on muffins again. To order pizza when I can’t be bothered to cook. To snack on crisps and chocolate whilst I revise. It is very difficult to not get demotivated when you are anticipating a gain as you think that you may as well scrap it for the week. Hopefully the weigh in tomorrow morning will give me the kick up the bum I need to get out of this negative rut and back on track. The bottom line though is that I am not giving up. I know what my own mental hurdles are and the biggest one I face is guilt. Going out for Danae’s birthday meal was wonderful, and having a social time at Chris’ band’s gig and then a drink in town was fab. But for the following 3 days I have been racked with guilt about how many syns I had and how many calories I ate – despite having a great time in the moment. Mom has set me a challenge to try and overcome this guilt, and I will do my best to work on it.
As for my day, I’ve done some yoga this eveninga and I have been reasonably productive; my load of washing should be just about done in the dryer, I’ve washed all my dishes and I have fully tidied my room. I really do own a lot of stuff. I am also considering coming back home this weekend for a much needed break from university AND because it is my nan’s birthday party (which she has no clue about). I would probably go back on the thursday evening, so I don’t know whether I would physically be able to not see her until the party which is on the Sunday. Either way, I need to decide if I am going as the trains are already expensive as it is – around £50 (if not more) for a return. The party is at my house and I have been told its a BBQ so perfect for food optimising. Slimming World actually posted an article dedicated to BBQs just the other day so I will give that a read. I presume it will suggest having chicken, lots of salad, watching out for bread and fatty burgers. I will probably make my own low-syn aioli and have my low syn ketchup too.
Speaking of food, my lunch today was chicken, 2 fried eggs, peppers and cucumber. A bit random I know, but I was going to have baked beans instead of the veg and changed my mind at the last minute. I am attempting to have more vegetables – particularly speed foods – on my plate whenever I can.
I’ve been getting a bit fed up of my en papillote meals so I went back to pesto. I realised that the pesto I use has more syns in it than I thought; 3.5 per tbsp. I had about 5 syns in this meal just from that pesto. I think I used to put a bit more pesto in to my meals a few weeks ago which was because I wasn’t entering my food into the diary and therefore I wasn’t as conscious of the syn value of everything. This is chicken, mushrooms, peppers, green beans, mangetout, asparagus, garlic and pesto. All of that veg is speed food!
I was watching a film with the lads downstairs but it was a bit gory for me. It’s ‘World War Z’ so definitely more of a boys film than a girls – hence I am in my room scrawling out this blog post. I’m going to go and get my washing out of the dryer though now else I will forget!